I was thinking about so much at that time. Nothing has really changed.
I was thinking about so much at that time. Nothing has really changed.
I've sinned
and it doesn't only affect me
it never does...How selfish I was
maybe still am to think that I don't deserve the inevitable
the love I have outweighs all obstacles
but that's only for me, and of course it would be
I'm the sinner
It's a kick in the ass
the mud in the face
the look of a friend
the voice of reason...just to send it all crashing down
followed by confusion
scared of the future simply because I think I've figured it all out
These things leave you breathless in the worst way
more than a test, this bleeds you to decay
Self-hate is just a by-product, a label for me to peel off and deny
Words aren't something you can rely
on
actions are
And the actions come with consequences.
and it doesn't only affect me
it never does...How selfish I was
maybe still am to think that I don't deserve the inevitable
the love I have outweighs all obstacles
but that's only for me, and of course it would be
I'm the sinner
It's a kick in the ass
the mud in the face
the look of a friend
the voice of reason...just to send it all crashing down
followed by confusion
scared of the future simply because I think I've figured it all out
These things leave you breathless in the worst way
more than a test, this bleeds you to decay
Self-hate is just a by-product, a label for me to peel off and deny
Words aren't something you can rely
on
actions are
And the actions come with consequences.
I've used Tumblr for a while, and it was cool. However, I don't feel like it's personal enough. Brief splatterings of favored media clippings don't let you into my mind that much faster than me actually using this medium as a webjournal. So much has happened to me since my last blogspot post; I'm on a different path in my life now. My current emotion is....blank. Mostly distraught though.
Life is just one big as loop-de-loop, ya know? I'm really ready for my sick-bag and a shovel. I'm losing it now. One event that changed the way i look at life and people happened this weekend. I'm not going to go into any details for the simple fact that the dust hasn't settled yet. Just know this; I walk away the big loser.
Life is just one big as loop-de-loop, ya know? I'm really ready for my sick-bag and a shovel. I'm losing it now. One event that changed the way i look at life and people happened this weekend. I'm not going to go into any details for the simple fact that the dust hasn't settled yet. Just know this; I walk away the big loser.
