It's been a while, huh? that's because i don't have internet on my comp. These words are being typed from my moms place. Since last time, I left school-scratch that- I got DQ'ed. Being in Oswego, I feel, wasn't really letting me be "Me." I wasn't putting my education first when i was there, which is a death wish. I started straying from the path as well as the expectations of my family. I lowered my standards, lost a plan, and had too much fun. Now, it's time to grow. I can say all the positive things in the world to motivate myself, but it'll all be looked at and cliched bullsh*t, so i'm not. I know what I have to do. Since i've been back and let everyone know of my status, i have felt so much better about myself. An immense weight just fell off of me; I'm sure it was the fear of telling everyone that I wasn't doing as well as they had thought. However, I brought all of my shit to the forefront and let it all out. Now I feel like there is nothing to fear. Nothing. I don't owe anyone anything and that's how i intend to keep it. Of course there are goals that I'd like to have accomplished. It's time to start getting on those.
